Transforming myself to please others in my life,
Berating myself to keep the Love alive,
Controlling myself to keep the peace in my space,
Dismissing myself letting others take my place!
Whinging and whining, blaming and shamming;
Sucking it up, destroying and maiming!
Pillow on face, restricting the air,
Breathing is labored and I really don’t care.
Stomach is heaving, the head swimming,
There is no end and there was no beginning.
The buck stops here, my responsibility,
Unearthing the truth my fragility.
Acceptance of self, my strengths may not fit,
With what I think I want, is it worth the risk?
To discover who I am, to uncover truth,
To thank all who have pushed me with their mirrored proof.
To those who have suffocated and pressured me to be,
That which I’m not, it’s nothing! Worse is what I’ve done to me.
For the damage I have done to myself is the issue,
Mirror Mirror, I offer myself this inspired resolve.
To begin yet again with awareness and gentle console
The younger years I lived unaware in shadow, I now absolve.
Stepping forward will be hard
I choose to breathe freely,
No going back!
I will discover and live the truth of Me.
“Precious and tiny, gentle and sweet
Strong and thoughtful, caring and loving
You have everything within that you will ever need
Rise from the ashes of your own deceit
Create this new world of Living and Life
Forgive the existence that you have held for this time
You are stepping forward with all you need in place
Trust the foundations that are laid in this space.
The power of light burns bright in your soul
Open the floodgates let it explode.
Blessings and good fortune are laid upon your path
Now is the time to begin…lets start :)”